added snowflakes into tis blog of mine. heez. nth 2 do. well, i shd b studying. sigh. been very slack tis sem. wonder if i would pass. yest dreamt of smthing n it left me tinking abt all my pasts n stuff. hmm. must say i definitely have changed alot. from my perspectives 2 many other things. my expectations for guys changed.. my views on friendships changed, my views on relationships also changed. d old me often tink tt there r other guys who r better n often neglecting guys who r gd 2 me. i often fall in love wif d wrong kind of guys. guys who r out 2 get more den juz love. sick n tired of all these ppl. it was till things happened den i realise all tis while, d things tt i've been pursuing r totally wrong n tt i shd changed. i did. n luckily 4 me, there is tis sm1 who has been always there 4 me. 7 yrs, tis person has been by my side. not easy. i admit tt at times i took him for granted n at times, i juz ignore tt person. i'm truly regretful abt those times. but den whenever i need him, he is there, listening 2 my bullshit n nagging. often let me vent my anger n stuff. it was till my elder bro's funeral den i start 2 realise who is willing 2 stand by me no matter wad happen. he was there, 2 days. even whn he had his surgery, he came. well, my ex did came but it was becuz d place was at amk n he stays at amk. u tink if it was at jurong, he will come down? i doubt so. tt person on d other hand came, even all d way from jurong. even during d cremation. he saw me crying, saw me gg crazy. i was devasted by my elder bro's death n whn i need 2 vent anger, he will b there n whn i smoke like nobody's business, he didnt say anything n say he understands wad i m gg thru n even accompany me 2 smoke but then, he did advise n ask me nt 2 smoke too much too. wad more can i ask? maybe like he says, he owe me in his previous life n no matter wad stupid things i did 2 him, he cant run away. he cant gif up. touched by all d words n things he did. wadever i wan, he will try his best 2 gif me. d tarot cards, diamond ring n all others. all d past relationships i had is nth compared 2 tis. i wonder y till nw den i realised all these. maybe GOD wans me 2 go thru all those pain den at d end, i could treat d 1 tt have been there for me even better. maybe. anyway, i shd b considered lucky tt i still haf sm1 like him by my side. guess GOD isnt tt unfair after all. cuz i often complain abt y i always haf 2 meet all those jerks n gt hurt by them? well, i know y now. i reali do. i hope tis time everything is gd, everything is wad i wan n everything is wad i expect. cant b so confident cuz anything can happen. haf 2 juz pray hard.
I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go i'll be on my way to you
The way thats true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
