current blog song: Never be replaced by first ladi

a song which i like quite a long time ago.. cuz tis song, at tt time, reminds me of my another ex, G. hmm.. den i didnt listen 2 tis song again cuz recent ex like tis song. duhz. so many links. but now, tt i'm no longer related 2 anyone one of them, i shall resume 2 liking tis song. anyway, later gg 2 equator pub. wonder whether it would b fun or not. hope it will. cuz some guys there r not-so-friendly. d last time i went there was tis guy, by d name of D, i go in haven half an hr, he asks 4 my num. n it was d first time i saw him. he was a friend of tis guy i know called R. damn duhz nor.. somemore he was quite those attitude person cuz whn he shake hands wif us, he like not very willing den in d end, wan my num. duhz! anyway, tis guy is like so old-fashion can. he ask me 2 lend him see my hp. i juz let him c 4 one sec n took back. den he say i very dao, nv give him chance 2 enter his num in. *faints* old tactics already can? haha.. anyway, i'm nt interested.

tmr gg 2 kushinbo at suntec wif bitching_inc babes! its a jap buffet. also 2 celebrate d very belated jasmine bday n we gona gif her a treat! *smiles* den after tt, off for sm shopping! gt alot of things in my mind tt i wana buy. but tinking abt $$$, haven 2 haf second thoughts. haa!

well, i shd b getting sm rest for 2nite. tmr haf 2 wake up early for tt buffet also. -_-'' wonder if i can wake up. gona be a panda. will update tmr! enjoy d song!

*names have been changed into short n sweet initials 2 protect those ppl. *grins*

yo! finally today is my last paper!!!!!!! thou its damn hard n i write till my fingers gt numb. *roll eyes* manage 2 write alot.. mostly rubbish i guess. haa! can u imagine.. first question 54marks, 2nd question 22 marks n 3rd question 24 marks? stressed man! was sweating whn i saw d marks allocation. anyway, finish at ard 3.15 n so. was d third 2 get my butt out of d classroom. met jia n jas downstairs n we were discussing abt d batam trip. but, indonesia had an earthquake today n its somehow not very advisable 2 go there. but.. i dun reali mind la.. duno abt d rest. guess we gona discuss again. den we waited 4 our other classmates 2 finish their paper n off we go 2 pizza hut! we had altogether 14 ppl who went. ordered quite alot n talk rubbish n crap while we eat! damn cool! even set a date for our nxt class outing. which will b on d 11th of may.. to sentosa!!! cant wait. *grins* love my class babes n of coz, one hunk! *laughs* tmr may b gg 2 equator pub wif dear shirley. since she started work, haven met her much. hehe. gg there 2 celebrate dear marcus's ord. haha. madness. shopping will b most prob on thurs wif my bitching_inc babies n sat, clubbing wif them too! so much 2 do! boy is on guard duty today.. no one acc me talk.. *sobs* but he may b callin me later.. hehe! he promises me ghengis khan (duno rite or wrong spelling) whn he book out! its a restaurant tt serves buffet n 1 person haf 2 pay at least 30bucks for it! he is treating me! n in return, i'm treating him choc fondue i tink. at haagen daaz. hmm.. *slurps* need 2 crack my brain for his bday present also. 7 yrs, not 1 yr i officially buy him smthing but all these yrs, he will buy me bday present. shall buy him smthing special tis yr! *smiles* okie. gona continue my msn conversation wif joe n julz. cya!

current blog song: Bad boy by cascada

seriously, i dun haf d mood 2 study d last paper. too much words n also, i duno wad d hell 2 study! haha! therefore, decide 2 forgo it. in d clubbing mood. n i kinda like tis eurodance. no special meaning to it. maybe.... except 2 d ex who treat me like shit n i wana tell u.. I dun need u in my life anymore n i dun need u again! cuz i'm someone else's girl. haa! pls know, u arent tt great anyway.. dun always say u r a yandao kia or wadsoever. cuz, u r d worst i ever seen n u aint tt yandao afterall. u shd b gg 2 a rm n reflect. be guilty 2 all d girls u cheated n hurt. u once say tt i will committ suicide if u leave me.. oh pls.. u r nt tt "great" enough yet. so, go n cry now! shoo! *grins*

ppl may tink i'm a bitch 4 sayin tis. but hey, those who know wad happen will tink everything i said is exactly wad they tink! therefore, i haf no regrets at all. thank you. *smiles*

evening! *grins* nice day 2day.. cuz my paper today shd b considered easy! almost d same as d revision paper tt our lecturer posted on d internet. wooo.. manage 2 answered all d questions in an hr. headed 2 causeway pt. kim drove us there. i went 2 pastamania n bought take-away. was cravin 4 it. den went 2 crystal jade n bought some dim sum 4 my mum. such a fillial daughter rite? *smiles* haha.. jasmine accompanied me thruout. anyway, we, d Bitching_inc company consisting urs truly, jasmine, xiaojia n kim haf decided tt we r heading 2 Batam tis end of d mth! yest jasmine showed me d resort n it was super duper nice n d prices r real cheap! so, all of us deicide tt we shall go there. cant wait! there will b 6 ppl gg. hopefully all can make it. tmr my classmates r gg 2 pizza hut after my final paper. cool! lots of programmes comin up. its time 2 haf fun after tmr! also, d bitching_inc r gg gotham penthouse 2 club tis comin sat. its at clarke quay. after tt, we will book in a hotel n at stay overnite at d hotel. cool huh! love those babes 2 d max! haha.. okie. enough of crap. boy is slping soundly nw. poor him. juz now from morning accompany me all d way till juz nw den he go 2 slp. anyway, gt 2 go haf my dinner n den later haf 2 mug for d last paper, which i haf no idea at all wad 2 study. fantastic. Singapore Families module. been skipping lectures for tis module, therefore, causing alot of ???? in my brain. lol! will try 2 fight tis monster! update later or tmr! take care!

taking a break from studying.. phew.. manage 2 squeeze those medical terms into my brain, like cerebal palsy, autism, epilepsy, spina bifida n so on.. zZzzz.. haha.. anyway, juz now boy was so sweet. once i say i was cravin 4 mac's french fries, he went 2 get it n bring it right 2 my doorsteps den he went 2 book in. *smiles* d fries energised me n now, time 2 get back 2 those notes.. wish me luck 4 tmr!

*thanks 4 d fries boy! =D

study study study!! *sigh* everytime tis word popped out, i feel like zZzz.. y do they gif exams? damn it. boy says is 2 gauge our level. hey.. he is nt d 1 suffering k! he is at his friend's house nw, probably enjoying.. leaving me 2 face d books. he did ask me along so tt he could supervise me study but.. i rejected. mad ah! ppl's bday ask me go study. where gt mood. -_-'' heard tt eurodance song, "d book is on d table" n immed, reminds me tt i reali reali must swallow those evil looking notes in front. great, my lappy juz dropped. how fantastic. juz as i was typing, mum came back n i panic, therefore, laptop drop! my heart also sank. my beloved laptop. hope nth is spoilt inside. clumsy me. *sigh* okie. where was i? hmm.. cant wait 4 exams 2 b over. boy promise me tt he will acc me 2 get choc fondue.. haha! tts wad i've been wanting. n also promises me movies, shopping, food n so on. cant wait! *grins* discussed wif him tt i want 2 watch d musical. "Sound of music" at esplanade but d tickets r freakin expensive! lookin at d price nearly makes my eyes popped out of my face. sickening. d cheapest n quite good seats r at 63-70 bucks. expensive can. i told boy abt it n he say if i reali wana watch, he pay 4 me. but in d end, i decide 2 forgo it cuz i rather spend tt money on food n shopping. hehe. already long list of things n places tt i wan 2 get n go. plan nicely le. my bitching_inc babes also intend 2 go clubbing at chinablack. wooz! been so long since i patronise there. used 2 b my usual hangout! craving 4 it! also, they may wana go overseas. *smiles* wan tt too! sick of sg. haa! okie.. i shall stop here. gona go have my dinner, rest awhile, watch sm tv n den, back 2 those evil notes!!

current blog song: true - ryan cabrera

added snowflakes into tis blog of mine. heez. nth 2 do. well, i shd b studying. sigh. been very slack tis sem. wonder if i would pass. yest dreamt of smthing n it left me tinking abt all my pasts n stuff. hmm. must say i definitely have changed alot. from my perspectives 2 many other things. my expectations for guys changed.. my views on friendships changed, my views on relationships also changed. d old me often tink tt there r other guys who r better n often neglecting guys who r gd 2 me. i often fall in love wif d wrong kind of guys. guys who r out 2 get more den juz love. sick n tired of all these ppl. it was till things happened den i realise all tis while, d things tt i've been pursuing r totally wrong n tt i shd changed. i did. n luckily 4 me, there is tis sm1 who has been always there 4 me. 7 yrs, tis person has been by my side. not easy. i admit tt at times i took him for granted n at times, i juz ignore tt person. i'm truly regretful abt those times. but den whenever i need him, he is there, listening 2 my bullshit n nagging. often let me vent my anger n stuff. it was till my elder bro's funeral den i start 2 realise who is willing 2 stand by me no matter wad happen. he was there, 2 days. even whn he had his surgery, he came. well, my ex did came but it was becuz d place was at amk n he stays at amk. u tink if it was at jurong, he will come down? i doubt so. tt person on d other hand came, even all d way from jurong. even during d cremation. he saw me crying, saw me gg crazy. i was devasted by my elder bro's death n whn i need 2 vent anger, he will b there n whn i smoke like nobody's business, he didnt say anything n say he understands wad i m gg thru n even accompany me 2 smoke but then, he did advise n ask me nt 2 smoke too much too. wad more can i ask? maybe like he says, he owe me in his previous life n no matter wad stupid things i did 2 him, he cant run away. he cant gif up. touched by all d words n things he did. wadever i wan, he will try his best 2 gif me. d tarot cards, diamond ring n all others. all d past relationships i had is nth compared 2 tis. i wonder y till nw den i realised all these. maybe GOD wans me 2 go thru all those pain den at d end, i could treat d 1 tt have been there for me even better. maybe. anyway, i shd b considered lucky tt i still haf sm1 like him by my side. guess GOD isnt tt unfair after all. cuz i often complain abt y i always haf 2 meet all those jerks n gt hurt by them? well, i know y now. i reali do. i hope tis time everything is gd, everything is wad i wan n everything is wad i expect. cant b so confident cuz anything can happen. haf 2 juz pray hard.

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you

Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go i'll be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

current blog song: Ming Ming hen ai ni by ping guan & liang jing ru

yo! juz gt off d phone wif tt sotong boy.. he went 2 bath n so, here i'm blogging! well, first paper today.. hw do i fare? haiz.. dun even tok abt it.. basically, juz scribbling rubbish all over d paper.. hope there r some which i'm able 2 get it rite. anyway, no point brooding over it.. haha.. yest sort of quarrelled wif tt sotong.. hmm.. but everything is alright nw.. duno whether its quarrel or wad la cuz its quite stupid. but i won in d end, hey.. 7 yrs le.. there is nt once i lost k! haha.. well, guess tts becuz he gif in alot 2 me.. like he say, i princess wad. den he is d one behind d princess.. lol.. funny la.. back 2 today. i came out ard 3.20pm n d rest came out le. different classroom. den kim drove us 2 causeway cuz jasmine n xiaojia wana buy things. went 2 check out d prices for cruises n genting. cuz we were tinking of gg "abroad" tis holidays. check out le den went 2 Charles&Keith. Xiaojia bought 2 pairs of heels. one casual, one formal. n i must say, d 2 pairs r very nice. make me wana buy. so tempting! haha. of cuz la, must c who acc her go n buy wad. *ehem* lol. den sotong boy came n look 4 me at causeway n we went 2 walk walk first. but causeway reali walk till zZzzz.. den, went 2 Orange Julius there n sat down tok rubbish. after tt, took mrt back. he alighted at cck cuz he gg 2 pasir ris while i took all d way back to boonlay. he bullied me while in d train. stupid. hit me wif his comic. haha.. cuz i itchy hand, go scratch my hand till all red. reached hm ard 7plus. well, i'm quite saddened 2 hear tt 2 of my best malay friends gt hurt by their bfs. haiz! during exams time gif tis kind of shit. its reali nt fun nor. it reali hurt my polymate alot. she even cried in front of me 2day. my heart ached whn i saw her crying. cant tt guy wait till she finish her exams? well, guys.. haiz. heartless tt time can b real heartless. sweet tt time can be real sweet. unpredictable bunch. my other best friend. quarrel. haiz. hear her telling me wad happen i also reali duno wad 2 say 2 her bf also ah. reali wana tell those guys, got such gd girls ard u, pls cherish nor. dun tink we girls will also be so gd. whn we r gd, treasure. if not, whn one day we turn our back against u, dun blame us cuz u all r d ones who bring upon urself. *sigh* stupid can.

anyway, 2 more papers 2 go n i'm free!!! can go clubbing n stuff. but maybe wana find a part-time if nt, parents will nag. always use their money i also shy. haha! okie! enough of update. gona surf net 4 awhile den wait 4 phonecall le. nitey!

current blog song: "Almost Here"(Delta Goodrem feat. Brian McFadden)

Did I hear you right 'cause
I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears 'cause your only almost here
I would change the world If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears 'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here

Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears 'cause
I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

current blog song - Lian Ai Da Ren by Luo Zhi Xiang ft Xiao S

noon! what m i doing here blogging? i shd b jolly well studying.. haha! but.. seriously, no mood.. looking at those notes makes me wana Zzz.. been 2 days since i went out n tt is a miracle 2 me cuz since i broke off wif tt idiotic ex of mine, i've been gg out like nobody's business, go ktv, pubbing, movies, slacking n alot alot more. life been good 4 me since tt break off. if nt, i will still b tied down by tt moron who still haven return me my $$. not tt i wan 2 complain, but seriously, his attitude reali sucks. for ppl who know him will know wad i mean n will stand on my side. even b4 we officially broke up, (we officially broke off on d second day of my chalet) he had another gf le. sucks rite? cant believe he is reali such a monster. i was blind 2 believe in him n disregarding my friend advices. but hey, at least i knw he is like tt. well, i ask like mad for him 2 return d $$ n know wad he say? well, i shall show u d conversation we had at friendster.

d conversation started whn i messaged him at friendster n told him tt i need my $$ back n being so pissed off by him 4 not replying 2 my smses n stuff, i sent him tis..

(me) : eh! can reply ma.. i reali damn farking fed up liao lor.. u can at least gif a reply ma? i need e money.. i need e money.. i need e farking money back!!!!! u gt money buy tt idiotic specs, no money return me.. wad e fuck? whn u wan 2 buy ur things, u damn fast transfer money 2 shilei.. but mine leh? drag n drag.. wad is e meaning of tis? u tink i very gd to bully or dig money izzit.. i gd hearted lend u money.. in e end, tis is wad i get..so pls, return e money n tts it! cuz i dunwan to haf anything to do wif u..

n tis is wad he replied: wth.....wat no reply????u dun even sms me lorme no phone how u sms me....quite funnY rite u wan back the money i'll pay back u ...dun need to say till like this......i ask my sis to transfer the money de lor n also not my money ..........u give me yr acc number in here damm Tu lan........

Argh!! see le i was damn angry! i gave him my acc num like duno whn n yet he still dare 2 b angry first! pls lor.. whn he wans my friend 2 help him buy those specs 4 him, he very fast transfer $$ 2 her. but my $$? he drag n drag n even ignore! n he was sooooo funny. how d hell do i know he does nt haf a phone nw? is nt tt i call him every nw n den. duhz! no brain can? i dun understand d part "i ask my sis to transfer the money de lor n also not my money". wad d? smtimes, i reali dun understand his language. nt only me, my friends too. can die looking at his message. i m pissed, so bloody pissed. i messaged back by scolding again n also giving my acc num. but till nw? not a single cent is being transferred! hw annoying is tt? such a jerk, i dun need 2 gif time for him 2 pay up. he has told so many freakin lies.. but hey, i'm glad he is outta my life nw. while i was wif him, he even flirted wif other girls! beat tt! i was stupid 2 tolerate n gif chances. anyway, i believe in Karma n what goes around will come round. u will eventually get those feeling of being betrayed n cheated. juz wait n see..

haa! enough of tt. *breathe in* juz wana vent anger. hehe.. well, haf 2 go back 2 mugging.. if nt, sotong boy will nag at me.. haha.. hope i wun fall asleep while studying! update again! =)

afternoon! juz woke up not long ago.. been so long since i slept till so late.. d feeling is gd but weird.. cuz i guess d more i slp, d more tired i am. haa! yest talked on d fone wif tt sotong till fell asleep. 5am wake up den realise.. haha.. didnt know i was tt tired. hmmz.. gona stay hm 2day i guess cuz d weather is nt gd n also i m lazy. haven start studying 4 my exams. die. but i'm those last min ppl n only last min studying will get 2 my brain. start too early, i will tend 2 forget wad i studied b4. guess i will stop here.. tt sotong missed call me liao.. gona go call him le.. update later or tmr!

tired.. came backin d mornin at ard 9plus.. was suppose 2 come back on sun but in d end, still came back on mon. these 2 days haf been fun.. n i guess tis chalet definitely makes me feel more bonded wif tis other person. didnt get 2 slp at all 4 d first day n resulting SC nt slping well also. haha! poor him.. haf 2 b tortured by me. mornin came n went 4 breakfast at Mac. but SC didnt go coz he gg 2 go into coma le.. too tired i guess. but i was still quite energetic. weird huh! anyway, me, shilei n 4 of his guy friends went. shilei wana play pool so in d end, drag SC come out n play.. poor thing rite? LOL! but den only 4 of us went 2 play in d end. we had lots of fun while playin.. alot of stupid things came out. laugh till wana cry. after playin pool, we went 2 look at d Xtreme games.. skateboard de.. alot of cool guys there.. hehe.. stood there 4 almost an hr den we decide 2 go arcade n play. we were damn noisy.. played those beat beat game n daytona. we had loads of fun. wanted 2 go n c d bike competition but den, all of us were dead beat by then n so, we headed back 2 d chalet. d rest were playin games n we played cards. in d end, SC went 2 slp n d rest of us played daidee n punishment was 2 hit d lowest points or d one who overshot 21. damn funny. hit till all d hands red. reali laugh till like mad. den we prepare 4 steamboat n all of us watched tv 2gether. lucky there were onli a few ppl so it was alright n d ppl there r friendly thou many i only juz knew tt day but weird thing is, they knew my name even b4 i was there. all SC fault. haha.. ard 10plus, i officially declared coma. slept in between SC n shilei n SC woke me up at 6plus n we took cabby back. reached hm take my logbook n took cab to n fro from sch. haiz! waste money.. all becoz i forgot 2 hand in on d last day! *roll eyes* nw, having headache but anyway, i did haf a gd time at d chalet.. =D gona go surf net nw, update tmr!

first post for today.. its a brand new blog.. haha.. friends been askin me 2 do a new one n tada! d new blog is been born.. spent ard 1 hr plus doing tis.. very proud of myself 4 still remembering all d codes n stuff.. *gif myself a pat* hmm.. nw, i'm able 2 tell all my nagging stories 2 every1 n of coz hope every1 will support tis new blog of mine.. do tag k?

will b gg 2 sc's friend's chalet 2nite.. comin back tmr.. funny rite? go 2 his friend chalet.. but actually his friend is my primary sch friend.. nv talk 2 each other b4 during pri sch times.. till only recently, went pub n all those.. i shall stop here.. shall blog again tmr..